I wish I'd found the energy yesterday evening to write about my day canvassing for the Democratic Party. Because now I don't want to talk about it and I wish I'd never done it. It made me feel involved and optimistic. I should have tried instead to feel more cynical and disaffected. Then maybe I wouldn't be so sick to my stomach now.
god damn it. god. damn. it.
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i feel sick to my stomach, too, sarah... but without people like you working for the cause the dems would never have a chance of winning this state. you did good work yesterday.
if it's any consolation, i saw exit polls yesterday that had bush only 2 points ahead of kerry in north carolina. clearly those polls were a little off, but the fact that that data existed at all is encouraging.
and for what it's worth, i bet feeling cynical & disaffected would make you feel sick to your stomach, too. ;-)
I know. Just the thought of another 4 years of that lying piece of sh*t and all his minions of darkness is enough to make me head for Canada. Try and keep the faith -- "truth crushed to the earth shall rise again."
the thing is, we never had a chance. certainly not in NC and maybe not at all. I don't know how I managed to convince myself otherwise. I spent almost 12 hours knocking on doors yesterday and fat lot of good it did.
Instead of nausea I'm working on feeling bitter and angry. It's easier to cope with. Last week my dad said "democracy means that the people deserve what they get." Well why the fuck do I have to get what they deserve.
Christ. Paul "Ashcroft of NC" Newby won the state supreme court seat. I really need to stay as far away from the news as possible for the next few days.